`dat Star hoodies & star cap. `to watch the Stars & Moon with Bintang. [wish tk tercapai] `for Bintang to find happiness.
`find a job after my late bday.=D `pass N-level & do dat course in ITE.
yest ; went to toa payoh hub early in the morning. reach at arnd 8am. me & atiqah adela tercari2 yng laenn. haha. pagi2 lagy kite da blur. got to know dat we send two teams ; Kratingz & Al Daeng.[Krating Daeng] it is pronounce as Al-Da-Eng not da-yeng lyke pronounce by the officials.. ishh.. macam2 care dorg sebot.. played timbang & monyet wif D united fc pple, macm2 org ade ei..=] stayed there till arnd 7pm.. Kratingz got to the final but got 4th placing. bgos la jugkk tu.. Al Daeng didnt manage to go to finals, but they played their best.. saw many familiar faces there, kecohh dahh.. ishh.
& since da penat sngt berdiri, duduk la pat bwa tu kann. thenn was looking at a person i thought was Dydie.. tapi bukann,sala eii. denn the person infront of hym, smiled at me, pandang skali, tk knal.. pandang lamer ckit, aru knal.. MW rupernye.. haha..
today ; sch ? noting exciting.. macam biase, kerje aku kacau org jekk. =] [mangse2 utk hari ni adela ; Anisah , Ateekah & Fiqa.] hahaha.. kehh sungguh tidak perlu. after sch ; slept for awhile. denn met the rest at arnd 5 gtu. Chomel treat, blanje Swensens, there was, adyq, ida, ika & zubad.. yerlakannn! ina tdoo jekk kerje.. ishh. reach hm at arnd 9 gtuu.
sent * home today [fri] ; & we played a game near the linkhse. game tu sungguh tidak perlu ehh wakk. syg nye pasl ehh, i followed her all the way.. kite puseng tu tmpat je kann, enta brape bnyk kali.. kononye maze la kann, sungguh tk menjadii.. haha. all the way eveything was fine. && as i thought that happiness would last ; it didnt. but i ignored all those things, n thought it as a challenge. i read things which made me "lemah".. but still i m no one, onli a buddy, [ lyke she say ] , so i dont have right to be jealous. im fine with dat.. but heyy ; it aint too late for me too try to win dat heart.. i've thought boud it ; i may lose in the end, but i wont mind trying , for the reason that i have been waiting for 5 months.
&& yeaa, i need to refresh my memories.. i seriously forget all those unwanted 2006 memories.. wahdoh! the ferst tym that i noe * ; 26 MAY 2006. (last day of the term) her ferst year in that sch. 26 may ; we went to Retro Fever.[nite ; sch hall] didnt know her at all, wanted to disturb atiqah, bt atiqah change sits wif *, pass msged to atiqah thru *.. sambil2 tu knal2 la skali ngn dier kann. tanye namer & she ans ; "samer macm org tu"
[ pointing at adyq,rows infront of us ]. && she thought adyq had the same name..but nope..
adyq name is SA-HI-RA..
only managed to get her num when sch reopens ; july. tu pon dapt dr atiqah. dat tym pat canteen ; pangel2 *,
dier pulak suro org gy ctu. denn i finally msged her when i was otw to National trg,
& she was supposed to have Npcc.. we denn continue msging after my soccer trg &
was otw to mama's hse at Marine parade. we didnt msged much coz she was tired. & when we msged ; she asked y i didnt ask for her num personally. the ans was ; malu lahh eii.. [aku kan pemalu] fake! haha.
start frm dec 23rd 06 was the day we were finally together..
all those ups & downs.
&& i know i did alot of mistakes..
mistakes which could be settled easily but were always been dragged.
we lasted for 1 year w/o breaking. [1 year 1 month to be exact]
but there were many tymes where we were on the verge of breaking up.
long enough lahh dis post..
&& i seriously miss that old nurul shahirah bte nor azahar.
which i have known for ; 2 years 1 month & 2 days.. [ferst time aku kire].
haiyy.
gdnite bintang.
Los3 P4nTs
12:05 AM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
yest ; sch was nothing new. bt wif ina's qs of the day.. really made me laugh.. "ana, kau ade mataer?" soalan kau tkde bonus lagyy eh monyet ? hahah.. bru sebulan tk jumpe, soalan gtu kau tanye..ishh.
arnd 5 plus left home for soccer trg wif Abg, && i was late.. nasebb smpai i wasnt the last to reach.. played st soccer. && Ace btol2 nye miang narie.. tebiat da dtg, prangai tklehh angkat.. dgn tangan2 yng menunjukan die tu lembut.. haha..
today ; i slept at 4 plus in the morning, & i woked up late.. da bngon lmbt, 6.45, pkir nk gy skul lmbat.. tahu2,tetdo smpai 8.30.. dahh tu, nk dtg skola, macm malas gtu kann.. so went back to sleep. nothing much happen today..
i knew it frm the start dat u needed me in ur life onli as a fren.
& i noe my biggest mistake, was nt trying to get u back.
haiyy. lyke i said far earlier,
u may go on wif hym, coz his trying, bt i wasnt.
giv me sumtym & i will think boud dat.
tmrw having trg & maybe going to Wans pit, tgk la bdk2 bola gy tkk.
sat ; drink day. probably ton for dat day or maybe chomel sleeping over.
sun ; the day im waiting for. supporting Kratings at toa payoh. =]
sch was ; bolehh lahh tahan.. && i was too noisy, bnyk org irritated.. hahah.. siak2.. && dis ass, tgkk org da takk tahu senyum lah knn ? tkper2.. da biase wakk. hah. && another ass, naseb baek aku lambai kau lambai alekk.. hahah.. i like dat! =P.
&& fcuk, lyke all the normal sch time.. i had always hated tuesday.. =/. haiyy.
sch ended at 2.30.. denn went to CWP in search of dat N-level Maths 10 years series.. denn off to sunplaza, took the bus instead of mrt.. next was off to, northpoint.. went to those 3 places, wif adyq & mas. && dat book was still nowhere to be found.. yerla, nk bli buku last min, mestyla tkde.. haha.. after all dat, reached hm arnd 6 plus.. && while having dinner, msged wif the ass which waved at me in sch.. haha.. wat she said, really made me thinking.. haiyyo.
i dont want to be a barrier between the two of you.. if i treat u diff, u noe the reason why..
Los3 P4nTs
10:25 PM
Monday, June 23, 2008
am so bored now. wanted to mit ika ina adyq n chomel at arnd 2 plus juz now, but dis sickness of mine,was soo bad dat i didnt went,even for sch, & club trg.. slept early yest nite, wanted to msged *, but i thought, i should start now.. haiyy. 23rd today, 5 months has pass, how long more ehh ? it should have been 1 year 6 months. && * , lyke every other 23rd of the month, pls check dat email.
fcuk, but i miss u soo muchh..
Los3 P4nTs
7:05 PM
aku dinamerkn Mat Kental. dat slipper sungguh tidak perlu. Chomel , Ika & myself.
writting my love.
entertaining us all. singing together wif herr. Mas, Chomel & An.
msged * wat i wanted to say all dis while. [there were more, bt i juz hold it back.] slept onli after i sent that last msged, at arnd 5 plus. in between those msges didnt do anything but kept on thinking. haiyy.
didnt went to skul for the study camp. but onli came at 12 plus. coz at arnd 10 plus adyq woke me up wif her phone calls, & she told me to cum sch to go for the learning journey. learning journey ? URA & KG heritage centre.. bolehh lahh tahan. but everything macm rush je..
otw back to sch, adyq was singing all the jiwang songs.. [lagu dahh sedeh2, die uat jadyy klaka] wif all the actions yng tk menjadyy.. haha..
wont be going sch tmrw, but going east coast wif the rest.. leaving in the morning but will hav to make my way to bukit gombak st soccer at 5.30.. really hope trg tk cancel.. aku rindu maen bola.. hahha.. =]
&& on the way hm, pat wdl lamer nye bustop,
ternmpk satu kakak ni dalm bus, ishh..
hot habes. dgn rmbot bru die yng da reborn..
pandang skali org hot, 2nd tym pandang.. DBK eii.. hahaha.
suke ehh tgkk aku behh ktawe2.. hahah.. =]
*, no werds i say would make u mine again. have fun during ur last few day of hols aite.
Slept yest cuming to 6am.. haiyy. & wen she msg me, i replied that msg half-heartedly.soriee ait. didnt went to skul dis morning, tersadar at 7.30,but still, was too tired to wakeup. sum of ika & mas msged were ignored, penatt eii asyek type2 je.. haha.
at arnd 5 plus left hm for soccer, da pat adm, shidah msged & said trg cancel. nasebb lom naek train. denn msged Chomel, ajak jumpe, alekk pon bukann ade pape, so yeaa met her at titanic, denn to mars, nk bli rkk, & arnd dat area, saw mr khir, he stopped wen i walked pass him, he was doing his routine check kot.. hahah..
waited fr akiah to cum, & after she bought the ciggs, slack2 awhile.. denn off to titanic again, time check 7 pluss.. ohh ya, otw there, saw * & sum others.. hahah.. otakk stop kejap.. hah. && y the sorry ehh wakk ? takk pahm eii. ishh. after dat, wal came.. [story chomel da critekn di bwa.] while tnga lepakk tu, was msging wif Anisah & Syak. gdluckk ehh anisah, da maot seyy masok national.. hhaha.. train hard aite for Nats. left the place arnd 9.30.. & i reach hm arnd 10.20 lahh gtuu..
*, wat u said mmg -tidak perlu-.. move on ? haiiy. is dat the only ting u wan me to do? org da dnga tu sumer 4 bulan yng lalu.. tkyahh nk ingt2 kann. if i could, i would had done dat long ago. so stop trying to ask me to do that aite.
Hmms it seems that they had an argument. Bru aku tau that wal org yg setia.
Wal try to coax akiah, he said that he really luv her. This is wat wal said,"u klau nk i terjun skrg, i bleh buat.
Klau u nk i rembat org yg jalan pat dpn kite ni pun i buat."
hmms klakar la wal. Aku ckp dgn wal, jgn la smpai mcm gitu skali. & wal said, thats the way he wanna prove his love to akiah. She started to laugh when wal said again,
"cinta tu sama mcm kite nk angkat gajah.
Klau tkde org nk tlg aku angkat tu gajah,
tkkn aku nk angkat sorg?" haha.wal mepek jap. tapi ape die kate tu make sense. Aku respect wal, eventhough kata2 die tadi tk semanis gula, he had put in so much effort to save his relationship with akiah. After the long conversation, that couple went back.
Romantic sungguh, diorg naik basikal.Haha. Kuwang aja korg tgglkn aku dgn an.
Endup, aku dgn an balik jaln kaki. So sad, but wat to do, da nasib badan kn,kn,kn. Haha. Aniwae thanks an sbb sudi anta aku balik.
past few nites had been thinking too muchh.aboud everything related lahh kann. even more aboud *.. sungguh aku takk suker..haiyy. i have dis feeling that im not needed anymore.. but what more can i do ? just be "happy" since u are.. && i noe, those late nite talks are being done wif sum others. [ yng tak pahm, tkperla kann ]
when to sch wif Syuhadah -asyuh- [ bdk rc ] & we talked alot. =] in sch, i wasnt in the mood to study, coz my brain was elsewhere.. haiiy. the onli thing dat made me happy today was when i finally talked to ika & mas.. Didnt went for Games bcoz i would be the only one representing my class, for other games. siakk kann.. lagy2 netball, takan aku nk maen sorg.. badminton? adyq hand injured soo die tkk dtg.. bola ? yng laen tk inform pape, tgkk sume alekk je, ape lagyy, balekk lahh kann. b4 i went hm, went to cut hair.. met Chomel,she cut her hair,she went over to my place,slack3.. & arnd 8pm sent her to adm..=]..
tomorow, will not be attending sci, sungguh aku tkde mase nk layan tu cikgu for 3 hours. soo will be leaving sch at 12.30pm.. && in the evening, off for my soccer.. dats all for now yaww..
&& altho im sad for sum reason, im still missing *. haiyy.
&& todayy,study camp was.. entala kann.. hate the studying part, lyke the Motivational Talk [MT] & games. the ferst ting i said wen i entered the hall for tht MT was ; "ehh Hot nye. haha". adyq [sahira] & syahidah tros ckp : "siak uhh kau".. those who were there for the motivational talk, the leaders, were all malay, & majority of demm were girls.. & arnd our age oso.hahah. =]. there's ika lookalike.. & zakiah lookalike..she was the ferst person i saw wen i enter.. hahah.. ade yng cm cikgu wati, macm2 muker lahh kite nmpk.. hahah.. ohh & we played the blindfolding game & had to called out to our classmate using a duck sound. sum of dem were pulling my hand, aku pon tak tahu tngan sape aku pegang.. haha.. maen gtu jek sume da berpeluhh.. heh.
&& for the games part.. wawawa,. paired up wif adyq for the badminton doubles. only had 1 match for us, coz 4c ran out of girls.. haha. adyq & myself beat zulaikha kecik & janice.. nice game yaw.. =]..
more to cum tmrw, but nt sure if im goin or not.. sungguh aku malas nk study, games jek aku hyper.. haha..
Los3 P4nTs
10:13 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
mas ; the dcision "u" make or wanted to make, doesnt even make me happier. && in wat way did i sort out dis matter ? aku cume kate. -lead ur own life-. kalo korg da nak mengaku gtu, aku tukar jek lah tu bnder. [i have changed it again] pasl kite kawan pon nak kene pkir2 ke ? && i say u made tat dcision bcoz i read it for myself la. sndiri mo ingt kehh. if nt i wouldnt have said all dat.. a dissapointment to see me this way ? hah. it is also a dissapointment to see the both of u dis wayy. dont blame me if u didnt get to say wat u wanted. i oredi ask u to tell, bt no, u still wanted to keep it by urself. nak aku uat ape lagy ? yerkan je la ape2 yng korg nakk. tkya korg nk pkir2 sngt.. & noone asked fr dis seperation. u think for urself nt others.
ika ; im sorry if my way of replying ur msg, hurt u. u should noe the reason. u want it dat way ? okehh. im nt stopping u. lyke u say, u lead ur life. soo yeaa. do watever dat will make u happy aite.
watever dat happen, we are still frens. thnx pisangs, fer those memories.=]
next week ; mon to thurs ; sch, 8am to 6pm.[wed soccer trg 5.30pm to 8pm] fri ; sch, 8am to 12.30pm. [soccer trg same tyming]. sat ; ECP chalet. [anak sdare Chomel] will be back on sunday nite. =]
Adek woked me up at 12plus dis morning, coz my father wanted to talk to me. && fcuk, ingtkan aper tauu. & he showed me that pack of ciggs. all i did was, "uhh". didnt receive any whacking coz he cant be bothered wif me. the only thing he wants me to do is.. "pls stay at ur mum hse coz she wont care if u smoke,drink or watever"..uhh yerlahh kann.. after all that, slept again, ngantok lahh sngt kann. woked up at 4, do watever dat was supposed to be done, thenn off for soccer training. dis tym training at bukit gombak st soccer. too many pple,so we took turns to playy.. we also might receive our reporting shirts before 29 june, so dat on dat day,we can all cum & support our team mates for the Grand Finals. Dats the only thing im looking forward to..
Los3 P4nTs
9:43 PM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
kungfu panda was nice, kelakar la jugakk tu crite. after eating at swensens , when for my soccer trg. was abit late though, nasebb trg lom start. && soccer today was funn, 2 weeks eii tk trun training, tu pasl rindu the fun-ness wif dem. =] on the way hm, in the train, talk to amalina on the phone. sampai lahh dahh kat bwa blk, kite letakk.. suker ehh suker swit2 biler nmpk org pat tingkat org.hahah. macam2.
&& i dun wan to think boud all -that-. im nt hoping 4 u to be mine, coz i noe, by hoping i will onli hurt myself. im nt even trying, the more i try, the more i think u will be mine. "so, if ur love was meant to be mine, denn it will be. if its not, denn maybe ur love was never mine to begin wif. " long2 tym ago,werds from Alai.=] & orgg cukup pahm kehh wif wateva dat u said.. =]
&& the song below is boss new song, entalahkn maner die dapt inspirasi.
I feel so sleepy now. macm malas gtu tau nk kuar, in a while gonna watch kungfu panda wif family.. denn frm there straight going fr my soccer. yesterday nite & now, my brain wasnt working much. [asl pkir jek, ade jek bnder2 yng tk patot terpkir, timbul] haiy..
i think i was thinking too muchh boud wat u said.. haiyy. nvm lahh, i will soon get over it.. =]
now im off to the movies..will blog wenn i have the tym..=]
noting muchh happen today. went to school fr 4 hours of maths, half an hour break in between. && again,me & ika alone. the other pisangs? satu saket,satu kerje, satu senyapp je ? hah.. met firahh arnd 4 pluss under her blk, proceed to take chocs frm ika denn to 28.. dat ass firah thought she was seeing things. she said "aku rase aku nmpk _ & _" denn she say "ehh tklahh,sala org". she kept on looking, i oso join lahh kan, denn i say "btol lahh tu dorg".. tros firah jdyy hyper..da macm org terbiat bwa tu blk.. strum guitar sekuat2 nye..
Aftr dat lots of things happen, sumer "jiwang" mode. haiy. kecohh da..
to her; lyke i said many tymes, dun be confused wit me & hym ait. && dun hav to rase bersala, im not hurt lahh wif wateva dat u think. =] i juz wan to see u happy.. i noe u need tym to think boud everyting. take lahh as much tym as u need ait. && heyy, dun worry, altho im waiting, i will never ever hope for u to be mine again.. =].
Slept late last nite, was on the phone wif Mas, frm 11 to 1 plus. we talk about europe, both of my -past-, our pisang's problem, replacement & chances & also boud songs.. but the main topic was to be boud _ .. jauhh kann kite melayang.. wawawa..
today, didnt met ika, she went out wif her fam. wanted to cancelled & nt pick firah up frm werk. but ended up, i still went. from bishan-cwp-131-syahidah hse. otw to 131, i wanted to try this drink.. yng mengoda aku.. "soda water".. after tasting it, dat bloody ass firah say, " pat tempat kerje aku kan, soda water pkai untuk lap2 meja." && dat water, taste lyke europe, "sparkling water".. patotla tk sedapp. ass. went off from syahidah's hse arnd 8 pluss, && now, im soo bored..
ohh btw , akuu rindu bintang. adekk told me wat u said.. heartbreaking yer ? hahah.. wat i said was wat i felt.. =].
Ferst tym blogging , & is upon requests by sum of d pisangs && sum others.. Fyi, i wont be blogging alone.. boss will also blog at tymes.. share2 lahh katekn.. hahah.. ader2 jek..
Came back from europe trip two days ago after 1o days being away frm hm.. && hell , i miss alot of people here. esp those loved ones.. =]. but i still did enjoyed my moment there.. will be sharing my Reflections of everday i was there., in the later part of this blog..
&& so, at terminal 3,where the pisangs were waiting for me.. alot of problems were "bomb" at me.. one by one they told me their stories.
To ika ; i have yet to hear the whole story frm u.. maybe u hav ur reasons for being cold towards Firah.. && i noe everyting dat happen wasnt ur fault. all dat happen was juz how u reacted towards the situation. when i meet u tmrw, i will want to hear all those aite..
To Mas ; i noe how u feel.. but u too have to understand _ dcision of doing so.. maybe ur way of showing ur love fer _, make _ tink in a diff way.. kalo sayang., sumer org syg kawn dorg .. n memg tksala. & i feel, its better dat _ tell u now rather than u getting hurt later by the truth. _ also have _ own way of thinking kann. && wateva u do mas, penknife put it away kehh. Pisangs will always be here for u kehh..
to herr ; although ur nt anyone's gf.. i noe ur heart still belong to sumone.. i may love u lyke how i did in the past. but to make u nt in a confuse state between me & them. i will juz hope fer ur happiness. even if it mean, u having to go wif one of them.=]
werds fer d day ; bulan tk menghrp pape, bulan hanye nk tgk bintang bahagia dgn org yng bintang syg, walaupun bulan tahu, org itu bukn bulan. =]
An_MJ_Dy
